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The moderator of Mindcrack Love ([personal profile] mindcrack_love) wrote2012-09-19 12:32 am
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speaking of emotional vulnerability

It is probably really stalkerish and creepy that I saved this link before it was removed from the Reddit, but I did.

Something I usually don't share with fandom - with most people outside of my family and partner, really - is my take on faith. Because I *am* religious - Catholic and a rebel, really, a believer in God, in Jesus, in Catholic sacrament, in organized religion as a whole, without agreeing with every single thing coming out of the Vatican - and that tends to be an unpopular opinion in fandom, in the geeky part of the Internet, and even in mathematics and science itself.

When I was in college, I was a part of the Catholic ministry. It was tiny - as you'd expect of a small school, as you'd expect of a school full of scientists and engineers, as you'd expect of a Catholic ministry in a largely Protestant part of the country - but it was wonderful, tight knit, and deeply emotional. I was a cantor pretty much my entire college career - about five years, including graduate school - up on stage every Sunday evening, leading this miniscule congregation to worship through song. (I'm only about half as talented as Bdubs, though, if that.)

And those experiences - every Sunday evening, as the sun set through the windows of our tiny chapel - were some of the most earth shaking and moving ones of my life. Any creative enterprise is emotional at its core, including making music; and worship is all about that emotion, where you focus it, what God and the universe is calling you to do, to create, to teach. Worship challenges people to become better, to become stronger, to break down the walls between them and the awesomeness they can be. I've cried - outright sobbed - during Mass before, completely overwhelmed with emotion; with what I have done wrong of my own fault, yes, but also of all the possibilities ahead and all the ways to improve as a human being laid before me. And Catholics are usually very stoic compared to most Christians, least likely to show the emotions that God is sweeping through them...and still, I wept, like a child.

So watching one of my LPer idols, someone strong and brave and full of conviction, sing to worship God in front of others - it was an inspiring moment, and a moving one, and one with which I could fully empathize.
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[personal profile] placeblocks 2012-09-19 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not going to watch the video for a variety of reasons, but I missed the thread when it was posted to Reddit. Was there much discussion on it before it was deleted?
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[personal profile] placeblocks 2012-09-19 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not really sure what to say on the rest of the post. I'm definitely way on the other end of the spectrum, and my respect for Guude went through the roof when he publicly admitted he's atheist, possibly in similar ways to your reaction to this video. It's rare to find someone I admire admitting to potentially controversial opinions/topics. Although I'm very much not religious, and definitely don't want to bring religious debate into any of this, I totally get the desire to talk about it and say "This happened and I'm excited about it, but there is no one I can talk to about it!" So, I get that.

Since it rarely comes up within the context of Minecraft, it's probably a moot point, but do you think you'd try translating any of that into your fic? As far as I know it doesn't affect their friendship (which is pretty awesome), so it might not matter at all in fic, but it could be interesting somehow. Edit to add: Since Pakratt is so openly born-against Christian, I guess some level of religion must exist in MindCrack, for what it's worth...
Edited 2012-09-19 05:52 (UTC)
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[personal profile] placeblocks 2012-09-19 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
Hahaha, I can see it now, "I am rejecting you because of my religion, but I'm gonna go hook up with Kurt/Juice/SeaNanners/Genny/etc. instead!" Awkward open relationship is awkward, ha.

Then again, if they don't have an open relationship in your story that is all moot.
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[personal profile] placeblocks 2012-09-19 06:25 am (UTC)(link)
I feel like there should be some way to travel "between the worlds" as it were. A long RV ride or even maybe something like a portal that takes you to HermitCraft or wherever.

Totally get having them in a closed relationship, too. It's a lot less messy, that's for sure.